A few days ago I read an interesting article by Eric Baker for The Washington Post entitled “Take a cue from Buddhists and Stoics and ask yourself these 5 questions to get through stressful times.” I highly encourage you to read the whole article, which goes into great detail about five questions you should ask yourself when confronted with stressful situations to more successfully navigate those emotions and prevent them from hijacking you as Mr. Baker puts it. I decided that answering these five questions for myself since I am often in a state of low level anxiety would be worth a shot. Here goes nothing:
1. Is it useful?
As many people will tell you, worrying is often not useful. To someone like me with anxiety who worries a lot more than is normal often about things that they know aren’t worth worrying about and will likely never happen this is an easy question to answer but a hard one to put into practice. I have gotten better at it over the past couple of years by speaking my anxiety truth and saying things to the effect of “Even though I know it is not worth worrying about, I am worried about….” so people can skip over the not helpful “Don’t worry” phase and understand more about what I am feeling. I am also working to be better at finding the worries that ARE worth worrying about such as sucking it up and paying a bill so I don’t worry about late fees or getting on my job search so I don’t have to worry that I am wasting some good ideas that would be easier to enact at another place of business. I fully acknowledge that this is something I will have to work on for my entire life but it feels good to not be focused on the worrying about worrying too much and instead seeing how my worries can work to my advantage by making me more open and occasionally giving me a push to keep continuing to improve.
2. Does the world owe me this?
Hello, my name is Sarah and I am often entitled. This likely comes from a variety of sources. I am an white, only child raised by an upper middle class family (both parents) who as a result got most things that she wanted or at the very least was not prevented monetarily from achieving them. I am also very conscientious so that makes me thing that other people owe me politeness, attention, etc. because I give those things to them. I am working on being more woke as the kids today say to combat the former sense of entitlement as the desire to become more involved socially and politically demands that I take a step back and realize that the reason I have it so good has often (even if it was not due to my own actions) been due to societal norms that resulted in the repression of others. The latter sense of entitlement, that people (and as a result the world writ large) should treat me how I want to be treated is taking more time but I am working on that too. I do not deserve things just because I think I deserve them and also just because other people or the world deny those things does not make them malevolent. Everyone has their own thing going on so the best I can do is always be grateful when something happen how I want and to always act as the best version of myself so I too can contribute.
3. Must I have this to live a happy life?
When it comes to material things, I am pretty good at knowing that I don’t need the latest gadget or newest whatever to feel happy. I do less well when it comes to thinking that I need just a little bit more money to be happy or to be just a little bit more popular. And, while I would have some right to blame society for how I feel, I know that these things aren’t true. There are lots of things I could do to fulfill these supposed needs. Get better at budgeting. Take more advantage of just having friends over to the house to chill (kills two worries with one stone). Call people more rather than worry that I would be bothering them. Then I could have the things that would make me feel happier without worrying unnecessarily and thereby taking time away from the things that I have that already make me extremely happy: my husband, my family, my friends, my cat, my books, nature, etc.
4. Is this who I want to be?
Increasingly I can say that yes, this is who I want to be. I don’t know when low self esteem really started creeping up on me. Like many people I cannot pin it to one particular event. Nor can I say with confidence that I don’t give a fuck about things because as Mark Manson puts it in his wonderful book The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck you have to and should give fucks about things. But I have gotten better and figuring out, as I said in #1, what things are worth my time and focus and, at times, worry. I will and have slipped up but I like the person that I am now much better even if she still has her sad days. Without those sad days and learning how to voice them better I would be nowhere near as grateful as I am right now for how kick ass my life is and how much more it can be.
5. Have I ever felt that way?
The short answer is yes, I have felt this way. This question refers to trying to be more empathetic and compassionate with people so as to prevent misunderstandings and hurt feelings. It is not always easy since it can tend to talking about yourself rather than fully listening to what the other person is saying but it is incredibly important. I cannot tell you how being vulnerable and allowing someone else to be vulnerable has led to me strengthening my friendships with people. And, rather than venting, I find that empathizing is more beneficial both for me and the person that I am talking to. We can acknowledge the frustration but from a place of equality and one, I think, better situated to finding out potential solutions rather than just dwelling in the nasty thoughts we were having.